Parker’s Story
My son Parker, he is 4 years old now, well physically he is.
He suffers from multiple medical problems including cp, he has fluid in his brain and in his spine , he has a seizure disorder, and many other unknown things to this date. I am a single mother i also have a 2 yr old, their father is not in the picture financially or physically. I had to quit my job as a lab tech to stay home full time with my boys, sure i could have split them up and put them in different child care programs but that would have killed Parker , do to his brother means the world to him and has been through all of Parker’s 12 surgeries with him.
I have a hard time socializing with another people or asking them to watch my boys so i can run a few errands or just have a break, i do not want to burden anyone. Thank God for my father who has always helped me out with parker, i get stressed sometime when parker gets in his moods because parker can not talk either nor really feed himself that well.the boys and i do a lot of traveling together going to doctor after doctor for parker. I am so drained , What am i to do? I am physically and mentally helpless. I feel that i can not go on doing this for the next how many years, but then Parker comes to me and smiles.. And that smile gives me the courage and hope i need to get through the day.
No one is real sure about Parker’s future but i am sure of him. I teach him everyday to do new or try to o new things i have totally committed myself to it and yet i feel i can do more. Sometimes i ask myself why did God give me this much responsibility to care for, i am not this strong of a person i can not do these things that need to be done day in and day out over and over again. Having a special needs child is hard enough but having to do it all alone is even harder yet. A lot of people don’t understand about special needs children because they are not educated on it or never been around or even seen a special needs child.
So they do not know the stress of the everyday thing with them. But i tell you every mother and father and care givers out there that do care for or have a special needs child i praise you for being the caring people we are to have such a big heart to do what a lot of others can not do.
Melanie
